Blackhole Revelations

And then behold, I was given a vision, and the known and tangible world burned away, engulfed at first in a soft golden shimmer that quickly grew brighter and more intense until it shone like ten-thousand suns, blinding my poor and simple eyes with their dazzling magnificence.

And when the world had burned away, there was left the void, the great expanse of nothingness, infinite in it's non-existence. But what a paradox, how could this be? For I still perceived all of this, albeit with some other eye (or eyes), for my familiar eyeballs had surely been burned away with everything else.

No sooner had this thought been formulated, (and where had it been formulated? for my brain had certainly been burnt to a cinder as well), I was flung across this infinite space, and I did notice that now there were particles of light, floating freely, amidst the ethereal darkness. The glowing particles of light slowly started to coagulate to form orbs of light, growing larger, ever larger, until they did become those ten-thousand suns, but now impressively separated, by unfathomable distance, each commanding it's own domain.

And then I realised, and I know not how, that each of these suns was a god. And I asked how - how did I know this? Where was I? Who was I? What was the meaning of this vision and how was it possible?

And the answer came, like ten-thousand trumpet blasts, so horrendously loud that I was blinded by their deafening report. And encapsulated deep within the over-powering roar that had just filled the infinite space, was the knowledge that the answer existed, and had always existed, and the ten-thousand suns assured me it was so for they had been born of that answer, and I knew it was so. But they could not elucidate, for though the answer existed it was not in the tongues of men.

But I must know, I persisted stubbornly, even though I already knew, and I felt a deep dissatisfaction, for I somehow strangely still had an association with the tongues of men, though they were not yet in existence.

And so I was told that I must trace backwards from my association to the very beginning, through the tongues of men and the tongues of the animals and backwards still. But the more I descended down this path the further I got from the tongues of men and I could not surface back from the murky depths of the origins of language and thought.

And now the ten-thousand suns blazed forth, each in their own domain, and they emanated the planets, and the light they shone forth intertwined to form complex structures, infinitesimally tiny, yet I perceived them larger than each sun, for the more I delved into these structures, the more I broke them down, the more they returned to the form of their parents, the god-suns.

And so this is the meagre report I have carried back from that indescribable vision- that out of the nothingness proceeded the one, which birthed the two and was then split into the three, and four, and more and more, until there was a horde of existence, stretching out till infinity, and each was part of the other, whole and complete together and apart.

And slowly all the familiar forms were shaped and the deafening brilliance of the golden light subsided back to a mild shimmer and the world took on a new quality for it had been rebirthed.

Of What Dreams May Come

My fondest darling, verily I bid thee good night, and sweetest dreams may thou encounter in that realm of ether. But not forever - for thou shalt wake from those dreams, just as one day thou shalt wake from these.

Happy Earth Day

He who has eyes let him see

The truth is hidden like a jewel at the bottom of a lake. The searcher must dive to the very beginnings of time to retrieve it, but the weeds obscure his way and the glint of the sun's reflection in the waters can easily confuse. But dive deeper - for as long as he can hold his breath he can search, and he will eventually find it.

Humbug

Another birthday comes along
And everyone is going on
With birthday wishes
And gifts
And ooohing
and aaahing
Bah!
I wishes I wuss fishes!

Losing My Mind

I'm the last human being on earth, and I'm schizophrenic.

The Preservation of Memory

“To be born again you must first die.”

The words were unclear, both in their meaning and also because of the situation my ears were in. But somehow, the meaning of the words, murky as the water I was in, entered into the very centre of my being. I had a feeling that something was amiss, but I could not put my finger on it. Not right away at least, then it suddenly hit me – I was not breathing. I seemed to be undergoing some sort of sensory deprivation process. I could see but it was hazy, my hearing was fuzzy, my feeling almost numb, I could taste familiar tastes that I could not name. And I wasn’t breathing.

“I tell you the truth - no one can see the Kingdom of God unless he is born of water and spirit.”

I could still hear the muffled voice, I could even see the blurred outline of people, I could feel hands holding me. Was I hallucinating? Was this a bizarre dream? Where was this place and how had I come to be here? Random, disjoint thoughts flooded my head (though I was unsure if I did have a head) – “love can damage your health”, “breathe”, “genetic world”, “L’incertitude D’Heisenberg” and so on they tumbled out into the open where everyone could see them.

“Flesh gives birth to flesh, and spirit gives birth to spirit.”

Energy. Particles. Atoms. Molecules. Compounds. DNA. Code. Copy. Mutate. Transmit. Recreate. Energy.

The perception was beyond anything language could describe. I was a presence. Among infinite souls, both living and dead, and those that were neither. Thought was omnipresent but it was the kind of thought that cannot be articulated for such words do not exist in the spoken tongues of man. Memory of a collective past was suddenly accessible. Yet this was only a feeling and I could not hold on to it. But it came back, again and again, in waves. I was bathed in a warm feeling of ecstasy and I could suddenly love. Even things I had once hated. Love was the continuation of all things.

“I baptise you in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit.”

As my conscious floated in those waters, its physical representation struggled, out of conditioned response to the circumstances. Thoughts whirled by, ungraspable, as language faded away. The pure being of all around me melted into an indescribable, endless light that was also a completely dark void. The infinite in material form that was me. The infinite in energy that was me. The infinite that was everything outside of me. I had a sudden last recollection of my body as it gasped. But only for a moment as I felt the remnants of my extremities disappear into the rest of the black light.

And thus I remember my death and birth.